Due to childhood traumas, I have always felt unloved/that I was unlovable, unworthy, and not deserving. I have always felt like there was something wrong with me. I lacked confidence in myself and I took all these feelings of my unworthiness as my identity. By having a negative belief system, my life mirrored circumstances that were equivalent to my mindset reinforcing these negative beliefs. And it was a continuous vicious cycle of a life filled with unfavorable situations. Of course at the time I did not understand why things were the way they were. I did not understand why God brought me here, and constantly wishing I wasn’t here.
I come from a middle class family in a small town of Mthatha, in the Eastern Cape- South Africa; where I am the third born out of five kids. My parents did well providing for us and I went to the best schools. And, yet despite my background I was not the success story I thought I would be or expected to be. Nothing was working out. I had a fixed mindset, and so I went on journey to discover why things were the way they were in my life. Where you come from does not matter if your mindset is not right, and that if you have the right mindset circumstances do not matter.
I start this website on a journey to overcoming my past traumas and a mindset that kept me a prisoner within my own self. Living in constant fear of expressing myself. To unlearning everything I thought I knew and who I thought I was. To reprogramming my mind to who I would like to become, and having a growth mindset. We are the architects of our own lives and it is up to us to find our own paths and meaning to life. To seek out a path that is more in tune with my true nature, by reorienting my life around values and activities that resonate with my soul. There is nothing new under the sun and there is no problem/ issue that is immune only to you. Through this website I hope people find pieces of themselves and it helps you explore new possibilities to learn, and to grow. And for me to contribute in ways that are meaningful. It’s not easy journey and it’s very uncomfortable, but very necessary for growth and expansion. I have days when I revert to my default settings. But, tomorrow is a new day for you to try again….